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2008-04-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

New Blog Address!!!!!

http://sapphireinthesky.blogspot.com/

2008-04-05T23:29:00.006+08:00

I thought of this long and hard. I finally decided.

After 637 posts, i shall quit the blogosphere, for now. I figured with ns and stuff, i won't have much time to blog, maybe i'll find time somehow, but it would not be here. As i start a new chapter, this would go.

Blog official closure: 5th April 08.

thanks for all the support through the years! :)

-and behind his tired eyes, she sees a boy with his arms wide, that made her feel like an angel-

2008-04-01T16:55:00.002+08:00

Went for NUS interview yesterday, went to SMU one today. Gosh, interviews are totally crap, talk till mouth felt dry. Finally it's over. Phew.

It's about 10 more days. SIGH.

I want to go watch MJ soccer!!!

Life is tough, and if you have the ability to laugh at it you have the ability to enjoy it.
Salma Hayek

2008-03-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

I was waiting
For the day you'd come around.
I was chasing,
And nothing was all I found.
From the moment you came into my life,
You showed me what's right.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight.

Feels Like Tonight - Daughtry

2008-03-29T23:36:00.002+08:00

Went out with jc classmates today, went to Beach Road to get some army stuff, end up buying quite little stuff. Haha. Then had lunch there, before heading to TM. Decided to watch Semi-pro,we were there at 3 waited till 6 cause that's the earliest slot available. Quite funny show though it's a little show. Quite meaningful too. But lots of vulgarities, damn funny those parts hahahaha. Also went to John Little Bazaar, bought a few stuff along with the other guys, miny shopping.

another day spent...

Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age.
Jeanne Moreau

2008-03-27T22:26:00.001+08:00

Went out with my Godma today, she just flew in from HK.. haha.. she treated me Genki, and gave me a belated hongbao! hahahaha... saw timon at TM, they having nights out. Talking about NS, sian....

It's also helpful to realize that this very body that we have, that's sitting right here right now... with its aches and it pleasures... is exactly what we need to be fully human, fully awake, fully alive.
Pema Chodron

2008-03-25T16:39:00.002+08:00

Went back to school today and got my report from Mrs Logan. Sigh, two weeks plus to go. The wait is damn boring.

One day i wrote her name upon the sand;
But came the waves, and washed it away;
Again, i wrote it with a second hand;
But came the tide, and made my pain his prey

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you is determinism; the way you play it is free will.
Jawaharlal Nehru (1889 - 1964)

2008-03-19T21:56:00.001+08:00

Happy Brithday Chris, the BIG black boy! :)

A bank is a place that will lend you money if you can prove that you don't need it.
Bob Hope (1903 - 2003)

2008-03-10T20:13:00.007+08:00

Today i picked up a card at singpost and it went like this:

Whenever it's a special day,
and even when it's not,
you're someone i appreciate,
and think about a lot.
I appreciate the nice things,
that you take the time to do,
i think about the way we met,
and how our friendship grew.
And as i send you wishes,
all a warm heart can extend,
i add a loving line saying,
i'm glad that you're my friend.

It made my day! :)

If you know how to spend less than you get, you have the philosopher's stone.
Benjamin Franklin (1706 - 1790)

2008-03-07T22:32:00.001+08:00

Thank you Lord.

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?"Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
Charles M. Schulz (1922 - 2000), Charlie Brown in "Peanuts"

2008-03-07T08:37:00.003+08:00

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

Lord with this verse i hold
to the promise that You have a plan for us
when You drew me back to mj 2 years ago
i made a promise to study hard
i hope i had not failed You, or my teachers
Lord, bless my friends today i pray
and grant me grades according to the efforts i have put in
this is all i ask for
Amen

In troubled times it's you i seek
I put you first that's all i need...

2008-03-04T21:49:00.003+08:00

Updating my blog after some period of inactivity, blogging for the sake of blogging. So i've settled nicely at Toa Payoh, good company, good variety of food, less competitive, more peaceful, except i'm the only guy. I get to sit in one rather sizeable meeting room all by myself with a com doing data entry.

Each one of us walks through a forest in life
Some of us see a tree and stick to it, giving up the rest of the forest for something we hope we made the right decision on..
Some walk through without finding anything, exiting on the other side still as lonely as ever..
Yet some of us find one, stick to it, realise that some things are not meant to be, move on from tree to tree, till one day we find it, sometime right under our noses, something that would be with us forever..

Never refuse any advance of friendship, for if nine out of ten bring you nothing, one alone may repay you.
Madame de Tencin

2008-02-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

From tmr onwards, i'll be at Toa Payoh branch. Gdbye Bendemeer... A change... Bid farewell to many of the people there. Got new poly interns there, glad i spoke to at least one of them as i walked out, if not my moody mood would have made it seem i'm rather anti social. =X

now can i move on too?

I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
E. B. White (1899 - 1985)

2008-02-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

I just heard from my Godma via email. I'm in a happy mood now. How i wish i could feel like this everyday. :)

WOULD U FLY ME TO HK PLS!!!! <3

The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity.
Francis Maitland Balfour

2008-02-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

today i saw
someone so beautiful
if ever someone saw a portrait of angels
i believe she'll be in it
oh Lord how wonderful thy creation
her smile alone made my day..

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
Steve Jobs (1955 - )

2008-02-16T21:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's dinner at Daniel Yee's place was great. Good food, good company, great gaming. Perfect night.

Parents went to school to pick sister also yesterday, saw someone whom i never talked to for some time. Waved hi.. then the moment passed...

-the missing piece?-

Examinations are formidable even to the best prepared, for the greatest fool may ask more than the wisest man can answer.
Charles Caleb Colton (1780 - 1832)

2008-02-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I’m reading into everything
But there’s no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don’t ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I’m always where you are

I’ve heard you talk about
How you want someone just like me
But everytime I ask you out
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don’t ever notice how I stare when we’re alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

If you're never scared or embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take any chances.
Julia Sorel

2008-02-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year :)
-the steamboat @ grandma's never tasted better..

Dance like it hurts,Love like you need money,Work when people are watching.
Scott Adams (1957 - ), The Way of the Weasel

2008-02-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

When the moon is gone forever
I hope you're up there somewhere
I'll see you again
Be with you my friend

'Cause all the roads they lead to where you are
And all the streetlights shine like they were stars
That's where you are

Let's spend tonight on top of the world
And we can do anything,
We can be anything
I'll meet you tonight on top of the world
As real as it seems,
You're only in my dreams

2008-02-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

Finally it's the end of the week again..

Aili treated us Macs today, cause this month debt collection not bad.. Chicken prosperity burger!!! :)

At Macs,

Matthew: eh u know they call foreign labour "wai lao", then like that Thai labour called "Thai lao", India called "In lao", China called "Zhong lao", thus locally which Lao earns the most?
Me: Wa LAo....
Jeng: Hey i was thinking about that too!
Both of us: So what's the ans?
Matt: "Mai Dang Nao" (MacDonalds)
*world silence*

Matt: wah lao, westpt hospital still don't want to give me my pay..
Matt: u know westpt is under some group called Econ bla bla..
Me & Jeng: Econ Mini-mart?!
Matt: *-.- look*

At 6 plus just after i step out from work..

Jeng: hallloooo brudder! where are u!
Me: errr, walking out of the office....
Jeng: HUH! u not going ah!!!!! wah lao eh pang seh sia!! never tell me i thought u going!!!
Me: i didn't promise!
Jeng: wah lao u leave me with 2 girls.. sian...

haha, sorry bro....

would you say if it was true?

Hope is only the love of life.
Henri-Frédéric Amiel

2008-01-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

Yet another nice lady leaves...
sadness truly...

why?

Silly is you in a natural state, and serious is something you have to do until you can get silly again.
Mike Myers

2008-01-30T20:16:00.000+08:00

i got transferred to another dept, now i no longer have to sit at front counter! WOO...

more relaxing job.. but then a bit more sian cause cannot get to see people walk in and out.. oh wells... so many people in my company are going off... sian..

is money that impt?

The more passions and desires one has, the more ways one has of being happy.
Charlotte-Catherine

2008-01-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

Boy:
God you know what's the reason i go to church?

I go because You make me feel loved..
I go because You were and are there when no one else was..
I go because I simply feel good when i sing songs about You..
I go because You're all i ever need..
There's nothing You can't do, no burden You cannot lift.
--------

Today is a typical sunday, lunch out with family, then just came home and slack and game with friends....

Being out here with most of the other friends in army is simply quite boring too. Sigh....

I was just scanning through many archives of several blogs. So many beautiful things in the past, aww, make me feel so happy. Some things just made me smile. :) I realise something as i was reading, some things may have been saddening, hurtful, unpleasant things that happened, but then after some time when you read, they become so beautiful. You understand why such things happen, you being to appreciate those things, experiences that made you who you are today, good or bad..

the power of love
struck upon the hearts of two
combined together
to make something
Unbreakable..

I've looked for love in stranger places
but never found someone like you
someone whose smile
makes me feel i've been holding back
and now there's nothing I can't do
[Built To Last - Melee]

To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.
Karen Sunde

2008-01-26T13:50:00.000+08:00

Boy:
i'm tired of trying to please everyone
i'm tired of being reminded of things i would like to forget
i wish i could let go of some things i'm holding on
i wish things wouldn't be so crazy
sometimes i wonder why people are so sensitive
or is it the things that i say which has no ill intentions but are misintepreted
it's so hard to find people you can really talk to without worries nowadays
just as i settle in happily
things come and change it, taking it all away..
Close to defeat..

God:
come my child
and i'll lift thy burdens..

2008-01-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

A few Email, super funny, and kind of true..

> ***Guy's point of view >

This is very cute!> And even written by a guy! > You might agree with it, but > when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late > and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.

> From a guys point of view:
> We don't care if you talk to other guys.
> We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
> But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
> It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
> We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
> Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.
> Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. > Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.
> The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. > Yeah, you can quote me.
> Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
> Take Advantage of the mood im in.
> LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD' We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you.'
> Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
> You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
> We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
> Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
> Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.
> Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
> Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'. I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.

> Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT > Someone who will honor your morals.
> Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
> Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
> Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
> Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
> *****Give the nice guys a chance***** >

Holdin Hands- > Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times. > Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once. >

Cuddling- > Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold. >
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

> Movies-> Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder > Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her. >

Loving each other- > Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

> Laying below the stars- > Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat >
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your crush....
> guys: no grabbing!!!
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The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Author Unknown

2008-01-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

Aunty April: hey does you back hurt after yesterday packing.. u know geroge also complain back pain like me hahahaha...
Me: no lah, not really.. hey did u read today's newspaper about the outbreak of the new virus?
AA: oh that chiku.. don't know what ah.. ya i did...
Me: one of the symptoms is joint pains u know...
AA: CHOY CHOY CHOY...

LoL....

sian, the flu bug is making me sian....

chikungunya

The great art of giving consists in this: the gift should cost very little and yet be greatly coveted, so that it may be the more highly appreciated.
Baltasar Gracian

2008-01-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

Finally my com is back online, after it died for a week and was sent for servicing. I never appreciated it more. LoLs.

So every day I try a little harder
To forget her
Lie here convince myself
Tomorrow will be better

The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
Walter Bagehot (1826 - 1877)

2008-01-06T15:10:00.001+08:00

Edusave Merit Bursary award, got $300 chq from govt. Heh :)

You were no angel
But you could make me smile
And that's just the way it was

There are two kinds of people in the world, those who believe there are two kinds of people in the world and those who don't.
Robert Benchley (1889 - 1945), Benchley's Law of Distinction

2007-12-31T16:56:00.001+08:00

First pay check ever! (:

seek and you shall find
beyond that of the same kind
time for a change
of which it should have started sometime ago..

Get pleasure out of life...as much as you can. Nobody ever died from pleasure.
Sol Hurok

2007-12-25T17:57:00.001+08:00

updated*//

Went to church today, manage to give out most of my cards. Somehow i felt something was missing in christmas this year, probably because we didn't get to sing any carols at all in service today. Sad. Anyway, then headed to Aunty April's house for lunch. Loads of food, cannot finish, returned that night for dinner as well. Haha... Help my parents fixed up 2 new cupboard from ikea, screwed both up. LOL. Well, at least i manage to complete it, just that some of the boards are facing the wrong way. Oh wells. LOL.

Greatest time of year
it's suppose to be
but something feels so
different it seems..

We do on stage things that are supposed to happen off. Which is a kind of integrity, if you look on every exit as being an entrance somewhere else.
Tom Stoppard (1937 - ), Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead (1967)

2007-12-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

As i watch shows with Santa Claus in them, i begin to ask:
So, what is Christmas spirit? Does it involve presents, Christmas trees, mistletoe, decorations, Santa Claus or the birth of a sacred baby?

a forgotten meaning..

In times like these, it helps to recall that there have always been times like these.
Paul Harvey

2007-12-19T19:33:00.000+08:00

Happy Brithday Josh Tay
-best cgl ever, all these years =)

Happy birthday Song
-crazy bro i only know online whom i never met :)

Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synonymously.... Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us.
Jane Austen (1775 - 1817), Pride and Prejudice, 1811

2007-12-18T14:15:00.000+08:00

I'm back! :)

There's so many things to say, so i'll just use a bit of pictures to tell the story!

Off we go - at the airport!

some river...

silk factory in Suzhou

the nanjing bridge - i seriously think this photo looks photoshoped, but it isn't..

from another side...

some ancient fort that we visited..

the man made place where they filmed - Romance Of The Three Kingdoms

the river leading to Lake in Wuxi

Rock formations in wuxi..

me & dad

this is real cool.. the guy cast items from glass with a torch in front of him... he's super skilled..

another lake picture, in wuxi, the lake is super big, so this is taken from another spot.

TV tower in shanghai, 3rd tallest in the world.. we went up, the lift just took 40 plus sec to ascend 253 floors.

on a boat touring the city...

last day, bullet train to airport.. max speed is 430km/hr, but only in the day, we took it at night.. sad..

(note: ignore 2nd video box)

oh, this is something, probably the most eventful thing that happened. Traffic jam in shanghai was insane, the cars are all over the place. i didn't capture it on video, cause it occured a few mins later. The young driver of the 53 car to the left if u can see in the video refuse to reverse to allow our bus to turn. End up he started arguing with our bus driver, then it turn bad. Swear worlds and then the young guy came out of his car, pulled the driver hand through the window. Then driver pull back, the young guy went back to his car, drew a weapon, a retractable steel baton. Our bus driver had gone down by this time and didn't see, a bunch of adults from our group also went down. The young guy siao one, outnumbered still fight, he hit our driver, 1 vs 3 or 4.. one of our people got hit, a bit bloody, but otherwise fine. Another of our people manage to snatch the baton away, and he was about to hit back when the young guy gf shouted stop. Heng he manage to control himself, or they say we would have drank coffee with police... hahaha.. thank God nothing serious happened. Anyway, damn cool commotion in the middle of the street everyone on buses cars around all watch like some funfair. Kind of scary too, but then grateful everyone's fine.

I also think our tourguide and driver is damn nice. The driver never horns at others, always very patient. Tourguide took care of us very well. There was once we ate at a restaurant and ordered an extra dish of prawns. It was suppose to be some popular dish but end up they gave something like a bunch of peeled steam prawns and charge us 98 yuan a plate. So the tourguide argue argue, in the end we didn't pay for it. LOL.

One more thing, if there's a reason i would stay in China, it's because the girls there are SO pretty. They have very beautiful eyes, ok nvm....

lalalala...

oh i bought 2 original cds in China for the price of 1 in SG. And sorry i couldn't find anything worth buying for u ppl in China, i'll make up some other way!

Pic of the day - Soul leaving body..

I'm a house of cards

in a hurricane

A reckless ride

In the pouring rain

She cuts me and the pain

Is all I wanna feel

She tears away just like a child

She drives me crazy

Drives me wild

But I'm helpless when she smiles

Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let other people spend it for you.
Carl Sandburg (1878 - 1967)

2007-12-09T19:27:00.000+08:00

I'm going China till the 18th! Flying off tomorrow! :)

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm……….. this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

Remember Me This Way - Jordan Hill

Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard

2007-12-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

I'm so grateful! Turn out the money was never not given, it was lost. :)
God's beautiful miracle....

cause in your eyes
i see...

Somebody should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit, every minute of every day. Do it! I say. Whatever you want to do, do it now!
Michael Landon (1936 - 1991)

2007-12-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

oh how i wish sometimes life was simpler
that we never could make mistakes
but we're human after all are we
that's such a 'comforting' line to be
i can wish all i want about being more careful
but nothing can change what had made me so tearful
i cannot recall the last time i shed a tear
how proper it would seem, if only it was due to fear
to err is human, to forgive is divine
but if the grace of others brings about pain to my heart
i would rather be scolded 10 times over
dear Lord take my burden this i ask
for when it gets this heavy it's a task

Father grant me peace i pray

for tomorrow i face another day

Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.
Marie Curie (1867 - 1934)

2007-12-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

Heh, it's finally time for my long awaited weekend! and although i didn't spend my sat gaming, i must say it's been really a wonderful day. Actually i'm quite glad i didn't go on friday, or i would have been drain. 3 lessons in 1 day. But at least they were simple enough to understand without using too much brain power.

Anyway, prom is coming up followed by a week long holiday to China. Can't wait, work has been draining everyday. So i'm thankful for sustaining grace as well as all the breaks here and there. :)

There's a special kind of feeling in the air
It only happens at this time of year
When everyone is filled with love and cheer'
Cause that's what matters

Pretty paper boxes tied with bows
Walking in the sun or in the snow
We can feel the excitement growing, knowing

It's the greatest time of year, and it's here
Help me celebrate it
With everybody here, friends so dear
Let me simply state it
Joy to the world and everyone
Lift up your hearts and feel the love
It's our favourite way, to spend the holiday
Yeah

Greatest time of year - aly & aj

We can have facts without thinking but we cannot have thinking without facts.
John Dewey (1859 - 1952)

2007-11-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

Thank God for always making the records tally.. hmmm.. :) my weekdays are now tiring. but i'm also thankful for all my wonderful colleagues... :)

all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon - instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.
Dale Carnegie

2007-11-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

I didn't know working is this hard. OMG, it's super tiring. Anyway, it's too much to ask that u remember. For those who have no idea what i'm talking about, well, it's random thought.

Uncle Steven took me out to lunch today, told me a whole great deal about the company. Great place, but mentally draining cause a lot of things to remember. Hope i can last till April :)

life of the no life
beauty by the side

I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to.
Margaret Cho, weblog, 01-14-04

2007-11-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

It's finally over!!!!!!! :)

something so simple,
yet important..
would you remember?

We are indeed much more than what we eat, but what we eat can nevertheless help us to be much more than what we are.
Adelle Davis

2007-11-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

well, chem is over.. finally.. and now left physics paper 1. Got to start finding things to do, i sense much free time coming up :) Hahaha, been playing dota these few days with the other classmates. Yeah.. I have a great plan for tuesday.

No it isn't gerard style of play and play and play. It's finish paper, kick, pool, lan, laksa! Wahahahaha. It's going to be a great day. Tuesday please come faster!

who are we trying to kid
seriously.....
miles apart.....

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.
Alan Watts

2007-11-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

now it's clear

A bird does not sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song.
Chinese Proverb

2007-11-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

I'm thankful that this is going to end soon.
Exams are crap.
A's just serve to prove that more.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

have we come this far just to end up like this?

2007-11-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

If i was a girl
Reading that would have made me cry
But i ain't
it still watered my eyes though
Thank you for such a wonderful gift
Simple yet strong

2007-11-05T18:01:00.001+08:00

Daniel just dropped over for a surprise vist. Totally unexpected, haha, he gave me a present! HAHA. Totally reminded me of exams! Thanks dude! :)

Thanks for all the well wishes! :)

-18-

More often than not, a hero’s most epic battle is the one you never see; it’s the battle that goes on within him or herself.
Kevin Smith, My Boring Ass Life, 04-18-06

2007-11-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

17 days to go...
Gosh, time now is ALL about study!
Study = Life...
currently..
sadness indeed...

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Over You - Daughtry

When you leave college, there are thousands of people out there with the same degree you have; when you get a job, there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you are the only person alive who has sole custody of your life.
Anna Quindlen (1953 - ), A Short Guide to a Happy Life, 2000

2007-10-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

Father forgive me.
I've ill-prepared.

2007-10-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

Yay! westlife new album is coming out!! ON MY BIRTHDAY!!! hahahahaha. 5TH NOV! WOOT. Their lastest single is super nice!

Click Here to hear it: http://www.westlife.co.uk/index.php

2007-10-29T08:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

2 years ago you did not forsake me
this time
Lord i believe you'll be there for me too
and so i ask
Bless my friends dear Lord
and bless me too..

Act as if it were impossible to fail.
Dorothea Brande

2007-10-25T08:50:00.000+08:00

A's is definately on the minds of every individual in year two JC now, even the most extreme gamers must have began to take notice of how they seem to include physics equations into their IGN.. HAHA.

Some thoughts have been fleeting through my mind these few days, and some are just memories of the past. Hey, time was great back then.. but then looking at the present, not much to be happy about. 5 days left, oh well.

Every moment i spent with you
Is a moment i treasure

I am more and more convinced that our happiness or unhappiness depends more on the way we meet the events of life than on the nature of those events themselves.
Alexander Humboldt (1769 - 1859)

2007-10-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Abby :)
-get well soon ya..

today spent the day in school studying, not bad lah, but towards the end of the day when henry joined us then it was GG.. LoL..

What makes you different,
makes you beautiful
What's there inside you,
shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love
I'll ever need
What makes you different,
makes you beautiful to me

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation.
George Washington (1732 - 1799)

2007-10-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, last day of official school. Took result slip and some other stuff, teachers came in to say farewell. Class went out for lunch outing. It was great, Seoul Garden :)

i saw Yosua as TM yesterday! HAHA, it was such a coincidence. We were just walking then he walk pass and nudge me. LOL. He's in Air Force, how cool!!!! Seeing him, my OGL leader in JC1, made me miss orientation so. Then again, our brief exchange made me recall what i read on chris's blog. "...but I'm sure I'll cross paths with the others. We'll look at each other, maybe stop for a minute or two. A quick catch up, and soon once again we go our separate ways." Dude, must what u say come true so quickly? haha.

i don't know how long the time our class have together will last, i try not to be sad, but as the a's draw nearer that will finally end our journey together, i can't help but look away.

I have a new philosophy. I'm only going to dread one day at a time.
Charles M. Schulz (1922 - 2000), Charlie Brown in "Peanuts"

2007-10-10T08:44:00.000+08:00

My Dearest class, u guys rock my 2 years in JC!
i wanted to use Graduation, then i think it's such of common song. I thought of this and it fits really well. Substitute all "you" with "you all" :)

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me
I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

2007-10-04T18:07:00.000+08:00

I spent more time glancing through archives of different blogs. Some of my classmates had imteresting past, but what's the most interesting is that when everyone started out their blog it was like 1 paragraph one paragraph those kind of unglam english essays that we write. HAHA. Then as time passes by more colours are added, plus pics and stuff. Times change things don't they?

Read more things on the past, don't know why i'm kind of like free haha. But they are such wonderful things that happened then. Yup, many stuff put a smile to my face. Let's hope things in the future would be brighter than now. :)

JC life is ending soon, sigh, soon we'll all part ways. But i hope our friendships never end. I really miss secondary school friends and the times we had. It seems that everyone have their own schedule now that no one is free for anything, but i guess now A'Levels is the important thing.

looking back
on the times we had
i can truly say
i cherish them
i love the moments
when you put a smile on my face
i remembered sharing the feelings
when u were down in the day
you were a friend
and still are today
may this fun we had
never fade away

Never let the future disturb you. You will meet it, if you have to, with the same weapons of reason which today arm you against the present.
Marcus Aurelius Antoninus (121 AD - 180 AD), Meditations, 200 A.D.

2007-10-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

today i was just reading through many stuff on the net. many things pop into my mind as i get a glimpse now and then of the past. i went back into some archives and saw how much fun life was back then, the lack of worries and stuff and i thought of me after school today. today as i walked home i just was kind of glad that i was alone. as i walked i couldn't figure out what to think. i was wondering if ppl around me were psychic what will they hear from my thoughts. it seems like there's so many things to think about and so little time to complete. then as i look closer at the past i realise how much bad things had happened as well. but then again those bad things were masked by the overwhelming joy then. now i can hardly find a reason to be truly happy.

sometimes we feel like we deserve so much more from those around us, sometimes you wonder what you've done to make things change this way.

Learn to accept ppl's strength and weaknesses

Give not over thy soul to sorrow; and afflict not thyself in thy own counsel. Gladness of heart is the life of man and the joyfulness of man is length of days.
Ecclesiastes

2007-09-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

*sings*: i want you to know, you make me happy
haha, kind of in a good mood now. (:

after all this time, finally some time (:

Joy is prayer - Joy is strength - Joy is love - Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.
Mother Teresa (1910 - 1997)

2007-09-29T21:36:00.001+08:00

Went school in the morning to play soccer, super fun. Damn shiok cause long time never exercise, the sun never felt so good. Ok then wasted my whole afternoon away too cause came home immediate KO. hahahaha. Sian, gotta gain momentum again, better have prayer request tmr.

Never again clutter your days or nights with so many menial and unimportant things that you have no time to accept a real challenge when it comes along. This applies to play as well as work. A day merely survived is no cause for celebration. You are not here to fritter away your precious hours when you have the ability to accomplish so much by making a slight change in your routine. No more busy work. No more hiding from success. Leave time, leave space, to grow. Now. Now! Not tomorrow!
Og Mandino (1923 - 1996)

2007-09-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

I've been returning home with very little mood and strength to study these past 2 days. i don't know why. it's like after dinner i just walked around then plonk myself on the bed and then don't feel like getting up for anything. I'll just become really sleepy after that and just go to sleep, just like what i'm doing today. Sighs.

So many things going on after prelims, it seems as though as a's draw near everyone has no time for anyone. All time are just spent to study, we can only squeeze so much time to interact during breaks. Sian.

Do you know u're an inspiration?

beauty of nature (:

tonight i find myself
kneeling by the bed to pray
i haven't done this in awhile
for i don't know what to say
but Lord i feel so small sometimes
in this big old place..

I have learned not to worry about love; but to honor its coming with all my heart.
Alice Walker (1944 - )

2007-09-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

When you're scared,
I will stay with you,
When you feel you're falling,
I'll lift you.
When you're heart breaks,
I'll ease your aches,
Whatever it takes, I'm in-
Anytime you need a friend.

[Anytime you need a friend - The Beu Sisters]

all gone

If you're not scared or angry at the thought of a human brain being controlled remotely, then it could be this prototype of mine is finally starting to work.
John Alejandro King, My War On Terror!

2007-09-21T08:54:00.000+08:00

yeah! prelims are over! yesterday was a great day of gaming at katong (: met chun han, jin kai and a few vs ppl at the lan shop. Saw the other josh, edward in katong area too. What a small world. Taking the week ends off, back to studying soon.

2007-09-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

Thank God for sustaining me through the past 2 weeks. Prelims are FINALLY ending. Thur last apper. Physics paper 1 wth waste my time go school for 1hr 15 mins.

can i still call you on the phone
and hear your laughter that makes me smile
can i still walk beside you
and see your smile that makes my head go wild
some say what's gone, is gone..
it seems so now that it's been so long...

The trees that are slow to grow bear the best fruit.
Moliere (1622 - 1673)

2007-09-15T20:10:00.001+08:00

After all, a good DotA game isn’t necessarily determined by whether you win or lose. It’s whether you have fun pwning your opponents ;) .

-note of the day

2007-09-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave toss in the ocean
A vapur in the wind
Still u hear me when i'm calling
Lord u catch me when i'm falling...

[Who Am I]

I hate mankind, for I think myself one of the best of them, and I know how bad I am.
Joseph Baretti, quoted in Boswell's Life of Samuel Johnson

2007-09-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

They'll try to stop the dream we're dreamin'
But they can't stop us from believing
They will fill your head with doubt
But that won't stop us now
So let them say we can't do it
Put up a road block
We'll just run right through it..

They say the odds are stacked against us
But that can't hold us back, we will be relentless
There's a voice they're gonna hear
A voice so loud and clear
So let them say we can't do it, give us a mountain,
and we're gonna move it..

We're gonna make a change today
Because we've got the faith it takes

[Leann Rimes - We Can]

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.
Jules Renard (1864 - 1910)

2007-08-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

7.37am - New Message from Andrew

"Wah Mr Hon stand there shout 403 then no one sia. saddening. tsk. how can (your class) be so mean.."

7.43am- Message 2

"He look so depressed. LoL."

From further sources here and there i heard that MrHon was like alone at parade square, not that our class wasn't coming to celebrate teacher's day but we all came later. He sang the national anthem real loud, then went around wishing everyone happy teacher's day. HAHA. Sorry Sir! After that the bunch of guys saw him walking towards staffroom from more than a block away and we shouted "HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY" across the parade square LoL.. Typically no one goes for morning assembly, i mean it's so early! Anyway, our class bought a lot of food for our party, and the girls baked for them too. I must say their baking is really good (:

After that some of us headed to white sands for lunch, arcade a while. Wysen danced Para Para. HAHAHA, damn funny. First time see people play w/o technique, but at least he manage to complete. LOL.

Lunch then went to Changi Beach Club. Pool/Snooker. Then ChangiV for dinner. Food wasn't that satisfactory today, maybe we all ordered from wrong stalls. Ahh Well... Long bus ride home that made me really tired and sleepy. Sigh, i wanna go Comex @ Suntec but there's no time and i got to really study. There goes my computer fair for this year. ARGH.

looking special today

Go through your phone book, call people and ask them to drive you to the airport. The ones who will drive you are your true friends. The rest aren't bad people; they're just acquaintances.
Jay Leno (1950 - )

2007-08-29T22:32:00.000+08:00

Extra lessons in the morning, walked into school wearing school uniform and teacher didn't believe i was JC2 hahahaha. Had to check student pass OMG. LoL.

After school headed to T2 staff canteen for lunch, the went to T1 viewing mall to study. Was so sleepy but managed to do some memorizing. Kian Sin photocopied the whole VJC's topical by topical maths revision. Cool, now i have MJ n VJ.. Hmm, these i shall reserve for A's.

it's hard to believe
one of the best advice i ever got
came from one whom i hardly talk to
yet so called declared close to

I have come to believe that giving and receiving are really the same. Giving and receiving - not giving and taking.
Joyce Grenfell

2007-08-27T20:04:00.000+08:00

today i studied in church, feel super good, cause it was productive (:. Study week has started.. sigh..

If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I musta done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I musta done something right
I musta done something right

[Must Have Done Something Right - Relient K]

When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is any thing you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it.
Edgar Watson Howe (1853 - 1937)

2007-08-26T20:27:00.000+08:00

Went to the airport to send jesslyn off today. sad to see her go again, and she's only coming back next year. Oh wells.. :(

Mug solo at viewing mall, initially there were a lot of people but as evening neared the amount of people grew lesser and it was more peaceful. But more peaceful means more conducive for sleeping. Haha, 2 weeks of pure mugging + tiny bit of gaming coming up! :)

saying and not doing

If you wish in this world to advance, your merits you're bound to enhance; You must stir it and stump it, and blow your own trumpet, or trust me, you haven't a chance.
W. S. Gilbert (1836 - 1911)

2007-08-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

They say your head can be a prison
Then these are just conjugal visits,
People will dissect us till
This doesn't mean a thing anymore

The take over, the break's over - Fall Out Boy

Ever tried? Ever failed? No Matter, try again, fail again, Fail better.
Samuel Beckett (1906 - 1989)

2007-08-20T18:08:00.000+08:00

And It's "Glorious"
Just To Laugh Like Us
And The World Will Turn
And It Never Stops
[Glorious - Natalie Imbruglia]

now i know
the source of laughter that brings across a joy to my heart
could be the same one who can make me sing

Learn to value yourself, which means: to fight for your happiness.
Ayn Rand (1905 - 1982)

2007-08-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

Philosomania Update!

taken by yours truly, featuring emo johnnie..

what you said today really strucked me..

Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900)

2007-08-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

time goes by so quickly, before long it's now less than 4 weeks to prelims. Sis got B3 for her chinese, thank God for her results (:

One thing said during CG yesterday struck my deeply it changed my perspective of certain things..

sometimes when we ask God for some things we go, "God, is it A or is it B, A or B?" at times we know it's B but we still try to push for A, if so, that's why our prayers are "unanswered"..

It lead me to rethink about the things i ask God for in life, and i realise i'm probably guilty of praying such prayers. Time to rethink some things...

"For every door that God closes, He opens another window of opportunities"

Resolve to be thyself: and know, that he who finds himself, loses his misery.
Matthew Arnold (1822 - 1888), 'Self-Dependence'

2007-08-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was one whole day of studying. Went to church, studied with abby, gerard. Haha, gerard in our church. LOL. Was great lah, quiet environment, no disturbance. (:

Today went for PE elective : Clay Target Shooting! Damn fun but the range damn far, it's like at Chua Chu Kang. Then the bus drive pass the cemetry. We waited damn long for the teacher in charge to arrive initially lah. Ask us assembly at 7.10am in school, reach there school not even open, teacher arrived near 7.30am. Nice. Nevermind anyway shooting shotguns with live rounds was cool. Plus the national team was simply imba. They get like 9/10 shots. Then can hit 2 moving targets in 2 shots. OMG, totally pro. Haha! My moving targets are like pathetic, although i got all of my still targets (:

super tired...

emo pic.... Day of His Power!

things that must be kept within

Maybe I wanted to hear it so badly that my ears betrayed my mind in order to secure my heart.
Margaret Cho, weblog, 03-03-04

2007-08-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

Yeah, the prayer concert absolutely rocks!!

some pics which i ook wif my phone camera, omg quite clear eh? VGA leh.. Hahahaha... Anyway the concert of prayer was quite good, met a few new people. I felt inspired about certain things.

______________

Pastor:

We send forth 5000 people with the intend of reaching out to 100, 000 people in a month. We go up to the person and say "Brother/Sister, Chrit loves you..... .... Can i pray for you?" We only count it as successful if we got down the name and contact of the person and pray for the person over the month.

By the end of the first week, we had 10,000. Second week, 18,000. Third week, 22000. By the fourth week we still had about 20,000 short. Today, the 8Aug, at 5.30pm, it was the deadline. We told outself, go out there, each person must take on at least 5 people.

Just now i received an sms.... today, we got a 106,000 in total.

______________

cast all your burdens onto Him

and He will bear it for you

-what God put in me today

indeed the concert took all my mind off studies, school work, worries, stress, everything. I'm feeling free for the first time in a long time. (:

Did you feel the mountains tremble?

Did you hear the oceans roar?

Open up the doors and let the music play

Let the streets resound with singing

Songs that bring your hope

Songs that bring your joy

Few things are impossible to diligence and skill. Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance.
Samuel Johnson (1709 - 1784)

2007-08-08T11:36:00.000+08:00

Philosomania Update!

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

[Last train - The Lost Prophets]

2007-08-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

Philosomania Update!

I'm quite happy cause tmr there's no lessons! But gotta start studying. I haven't been studying this whole afternoon, so hot that i felt sleepy so i went ome to game a bit to keep my spirits up alive. Tmr there's a prayer concert, hope it'll be good.

'Cause you were there
When no one was
Just when I thought nobody cared
You showed me love
'Cause you were my friend
You always told me
And I am still here
Because you were there
[Babyface - You Were There]

is studies everything?

It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.
Seneca (5 BC - 65 AD)

2007-08-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

Yay, national day week! A slack week. the week of my ultimately last break, the week of my ultimately last "crazy" gaming, which means more than 1 hour of gameplay. And the week before i officially become a hardcore mugger! Woohoo..

I'm kind of in a bouyant mood now, not really knowing why. Haha..

Yesterday in church.....

Mark: ......To be or not to be, that is the question....
Mark: I bet you don't know who said that..
Me: Errrr... Albert Einstein?
Mark: HAHAHA. LOL. *ROFL*. William Shakespeare LAH!!!!!!!!
Me: Sorry lah i science student, only know E=mc^2 =/

We have to fight them daily, like fleas, those many small worries about the morrow, for they sap our energies.
Etty Hillesum, O Magazine, October 2002

2007-08-04T09:03:00.000+08:00

Philosomania Update!

Woah, i feel so great now. It must be because of the exercise yesterday. I just realised after about 2 hours or so soccer yesterday that i'm really unfit cause i never even workout for more than 2 months. LOL. Anywa, after school yesterday studied till about 4 plus. Then as expected the chem people couldn't wait until 5, so we started kicking already.

Damn tired after that. Still can lie on the track and do crunches and leg raise with the bunch of people who were influenced by weiwen. LOL. Then talk crap gaze up at the minute number of stars above. Sadly it was a cloudy day and so not much to see.

Went home and was so tired i bathe ate dinner and then went to sleep. Welcoming break indeed.

Is there something you wanna say
Will you tell me
Will you tell me not?

Youth would be an ideal state if it came a little later in life.
Herbert Henry Asquith (1852 - 1928)

2007-08-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Laoda!!!!!

my bowling partner, my classmate of more than one and a half years, my cg chairman.
Best of luck for a's! :)

I went back to Changi Beach Club today. Stepping back into the alley brings back memories of my CCA. Oh man, it's been only been like 2 months since A'divs ended but somehow i feel so sad that now my life is about studies and not bowling. The club is way quiet as usual, so conducive for studies.

Laoda's birthday, so we opened up a pool table and took turns to play while studying at the same time. I must say the place is really damn good for studying. No one walking by to disturb. The pool area also have sofas and tables and best of all AIRCON. Really made reading my notes a pleasure..

Surprisingly the lady at the counter remembered my name. Even more surprising is the fact she remembered about the part time job she was talking to me about. It's about being an usher @ Esplanade. It's way cool u get paid around $8/hour and u get to watch the shows for free. Oh man, imagine those shows people have to pay hundreds of dollars for and i can watch them for free!!!!!! HAHA.

Anyway, daddy just came home and mentioned the surrounding blocks all have dengue cases. OMG. I'm surrounded by dangerous mosquitos. SIGH. Nothing i can do but pray that my family and neighbours and all those living around will be safe from it.

Jesslyn came back to school today, so nice to see her again :)

Ben got me to do this, but i lazy to sabo ppl, just putting it cause i thought it was interesting. Sry it's so late dude.

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 ppl at their tagboard to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1. How are you feeling today?
Guilty - Blue.
HAHA, guilty.. yeah, something's definately at the back of my mind. But i don't know what.

2. Will you get far in life?
Can't Help Falling In Love - A Teens
Hmm, a love filled life? YAY! =/

3. Will you get married?
I Love The Way You Love Me - Boyzone
Probably means i'll get married someday. Good sign. I hope.

4. What is your best friend’s theme song?
Westlife - Amazing
Yeah my best friend's amazing, but errr.. his fav theme song.. not so sure.. LoL..

5. What is the story of your life?
No Worries - Simon Webbe
RIGHTTTTT.. it was so before i entered JC.....

6. What was primary school like?
Sleeping Child - Micheal Learns To Rock
probably meant i never knew what happened...

7. How can you get ahead in life?
I Believe I Can Fly - R Kelly
ahh, a life of no boundaries, what a life... sadly life's not always like that..

8. What is the best thing about your friends?
A Little Respect - Wheatus
i respect them a lot.. cause they ROCK! (:

9. What is in store in this weekend?
Bad Day - Daniel Powter
THIS IS INDEED BAD....

10. What song describes you?
Heels Over Head - Boys Like Girls
yeah, i'm really confused by too much studying.. brain distortion (by high charge density...?)

11. How is your life going?
Tong Hua - Guang Liang
my life's a childhood story? nice.. like real...

12. What song will they play at your funeral ?
Feel Good Inc - Gorillaz
haha, let's hope the laughter makes everyone happy instead of sad..

13. How does the world see you?
Perfect Day - Hoku
of course, when i step out.. it's a perfect day for the world.. =X

14. What do your friends really think of you?
Girl On TV - LFO
damn i'm not a girl, but let's hope it's positive.. HAHA... role model? good looking? rightttt... self praise is no praise...

15. Do people secretly lust after you?
You And I Both - Jason Mraz
yeah, me and WHO?

16. How can you make yourself happy?
Bring Me To Life - Evanescence
yeah, i just need to get a life...

17. Will you ever have children?
Desperado - Westlife
absolutely no link!!!!!!!!!

Philosomania Update!

Then give to the world the best you have. And the best will come back to you.
Madeline Bridges, O Magazine, December 2003

2007-08-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

LaoDa & I were inititally talking about going to the movies today, but after Ms.Lai's talk yesterday, we decided every min counts. So errrr, i have become what MJC would so love to see all their students become. A mugger! Woohoo. Wanted to go airport to study, changed my mind and went to White Sands library instead. Studies for 5 hours. Actually all the 5 hours is choinging work. But revise here and there also considered study lah. Haha.

It feel so right
To be here with you
And now lookin' in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Eleanor Roosevelt (1884 - 1962)

2007-07-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

Today i happened to browse through the astronomic pic of the day section and this way the pic of the day for yesterday 30th July. It depicts 4 suns in the galaxy somewhere. I don't know where though, haha.

Had some principal talk today. Was really good. I expected it to be full of criticism or something. Well it turned out to be meaningful and super relevant. Well, i guess i just have to burn off my head studying.

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed

so many things to tell her
but how to make her see?

Sometimes you feel other people's pain worse than your own. We're armored against our own troubles. We can't afford to give in to despair. Then you see someone else struggling, and it breaks your... heart.
Sean Stewart, Perfect Circle, 2004

2007-07-30T18:31:00.000+08:00

School has restarted again. And today was my longest day ending at, 3.25PM! Woohoo. I don't know what to blog much about nowadyas. If i started talking it would be about studies. Yesterday I read in the forum pages about someone who wrote that JC people simply have no life. I totally agree!!!! If you have a copy of yesterday's straits times, you must go read it. It's hundred and one percent written about a JC student. But i never saw anyone really writing to the forums to complain HAHA. SIGH, JC life is really like that lor. Even ever sunday sharing time, i complain about work, tests and assignments. It's simply dead. I think this post should go to Philosomania. LoL. Hmm, that gives me an inspiration...

Philosomania Update!

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

[When There Was Me & You - Vanessa Anne Hudgens - OST High School Musical]

i simply love this song..

Always remember others may hate you but those who hate you don't win unless you hate them. And then you destroy yourself.
Richard M. Nixon (1913 - 1994), in his White House farewell

2007-07-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

Yet another weekend had gone by. This is absolute sadness. Prelims draw closer, and my deadline for study completion haven't even been set. Basically just following the scheme of work, but that's so not going to help. ARGH.

Philosomania update!!

i live for all my days
to put and smile on your face
and when we finally meet
it'll be for eternity..

When we are unable to find tranquility within ourselves, it is useless to seek it elsewhere.
Francois de La Rochefoucauld (1613 - 1680)

2007-07-26T17:55:00.000+08:00

Today we had some motivation talk in the hall. Yeah it's true that we can do it if we put in the effort. But ust listening to how the seniors mug till the wee morning of the hours is totally scary lah. Must that really happen? Nvm, i'll strive by my efforts. Just hope that we all can score well.

Haven't posted much these few days, that's basically cause there's nothing much to talk about. Still trying to settle down the new blog, haha.. which is some time killing occupation of mine now. (:

I thank God for something special, my Grandmother(dad's side) accepted Christ during a Christian funeral of a relative. I'm so thankful. I'm so happy. And i definately think it's the work of God. Life rocks at this special moment...

For every soul that repents, there is great joy and celebration in heaven..

Everyone is a genius at least once a year. The real geniuses simply have their bright ideas closer together.
Georg Christoph Lichtenberg (1742 - 1799)

2007-07-25T17:08:00.001+08:00

Philosomania has gone live!

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2007-07-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

It's true that when you're feeling really down, something motivation comes along and bring you right back up again

Today as i sat down reading my quiet time, it spoke to me deeply. It was talking about Part II of the Lord Of The Rings, where Frodo was at a point of espair and wearily confided to his friend...

...."I can't do this Sam." And like a good friend, Sam sanpped things into perspective with this speech.

"I know... By right, we shouldn't even be here, but we are. It's like in the great stories, Frodo- the ones that really matter. Full of darkness and danger, they were, and sometimes you didn't want to know the end, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end it's only a passing thing, this shadow; even darkness must pass. Living day will come, and when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those where the stories that stayed with you, that meant something- even if you were too small to understand why. But i think, Mr.Frodo, I do understand, I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going, bacause they were holding on to somthing."

Frodo responded with a significant question, "What are we holding on to, Sam?"

it's the little things that makes a difference
it's in the way...

Before you do anything, think. If you do something to try and impress someone, to be loved, accepted or even to get someone's attention, stop and think. So many people are busy trying to create an image, they die in the process.
Salma Hayek

2007-07-21T08:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after arriving home i sat at the com and started gaming, after i stopped i realise something was wrong. Firstly, my nose which hadn't stopped running during the last lecture of the day is running worse than before. Then i had a throbbing headache, and worse still an unimaginable painful sorethroat. I don't even know how in the world the sorethroat got there, it's just damn painful to swallow things.

Went to sleep at 8 yesterday night, felt slightly better this morning. I guess it's just retribution.. :(

Retribution for not staying?
Sad case...

If someone offers you a gift, and you decline to accept it, the other person still owns that gift. The same is true of insults and verbal attacks.
Steve Pavlina, How to Win an Argument, 08-31-05

2007-07-19T17:42:00.000+08:00

today's mid long day turned into a long day because of physics remedial. But it was well worth the time, unlike in the morning when i had two free periods right after morning assembly. Wasted it surfing the web doing sudoku. HAHA, nv study for the chem test. End up not knowing what to write. Anyway, thankful that tmr's friday, finally a much 'deserved' break.

Walking pass a row of pictures
I saw something that triggered a memory so clear
And it put a smile on my face

Looking Back
On the memories of
The dance we shared
Beneath the stars above
And for a moment
All the world was right
[The Dance - Westlife]

The best way to cheer yourself is to try to cheer someone else up.
Mark Twain (1835 - 1910)

2007-07-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

I was kind of bored so i was looking through some jokes webbies, i came across several jokes of the day which was rather amusing.

At school, a boy is told by a classmate that most adults are hiding at least one dark secret, and that this makes it very easy to blackmail them by saying, “I know the whole truth” -- even when you don't know anything.

The boy decides to go home and try it out. As he is greeted by his mother at the front door he says, “I know the whole truth.” His mother quickly hands him $20 and says, “Just don't tell your father.”

Quite pleased, the boy waits for his father to get home from work, and greets him with, “I know the whole truth.” The father promptly hands him $40 and says, “Please don't say a word to your mother.”

Very pleased, the boy is on his way to school the next day, when he sees the mailman at his front door. The boy greets him by saying, “I know the whole truth.” The mailman drops the mail, opens his arms and says, “Then come give your FATHER a big hug.”

A man was scheduled to go before a firing squad for his crimes.
The evening before his execution, he was asked what he wanted for his last meal. He refused the meal completely.

The next morning the man was brought before the firing squad. When asked for his last request, the man said he had none. The General in charge of his execution asked him, ''Sir, you refused your last meal and your last request. Isn't there anything you want before you die?''
The man thought for a moment, then said, ''Music has always been an important part of my life. If I could do but one thing before I die, would you allow me to sing my favorite song from beginning to end, without interruption?''

The General thought this was a reasonable request, and ordered his men to lower their weapons and to not interrupt for the duration of the song.

''Ten million bottles of hanging on the wall...''

Oh well, school has been the typical long, tiring, boring day.

Anyway,
Happy Birthday Guo Guang!

maybe just one more day of those happy times
and it would turn my tide

If you can't be funny, be interesting.
Harold Ross

2007-07-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

The start of another week to school. Today i sorang in LT1, ok lah not really alone because there were friends from other classes. But then the question done by group A is like SUPER tough!!!!! I sat between terence and andrew, and they both shot off to complete the dynamics question in like 10 mins. I had to turn one way to ask one, the the other, in the end i ended up asking everything! HAHA.

School was really tiring, was really shack after that, thankful for the bell that i rushed immediately home.

Chem teacher: see ah, if the top student can do it why can't u. I'm sure he studied durign the hols..
KahWee: *LOLOLOL*
Chem Teacher: so u all know what u all should do right...?
Randy to Boss: dOtA!!!!...
Me to Kw: dota!!!!!!
Me, kw: *LOL*

I will search the world
I will face its harms
Till i find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms

If you make people think they're thinking, they'll love you; But if you really make them think, they'll hate you.
Don Marquis (1878 - 1937)

2007-07-14T10:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday in physics lecture,

Mr Ng: and so... the lecture shall be split into 2 groups... With people of grades A,B,C,D going to LT1 and the rest of E,S,U staying in LT4...
My Mind: HAHA, SORANG!!!!!!
Me: Sian........

Rawr! the stupid physics lecture is splitting, and i'm going to be the only one in LT1!!! SiGH...

broken this fragile thing now

You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you.
Dale Carnegie

2007-07-12T18:42:00.000+08:00

today's been a pretty good day. Not to hot and not too cool. Showers in the late morning brought a welcoming relieve. The bus was a little late today, and i ended up a little late in school. But somehow the teacher let the whole bunch of us through, so cool. That rhymes.. NVM.. LoL..

I wanna watch harry potter! Wysen actually ask me to watch, i think may go watch tmr. See how.. I miss bowling training a lot! After talking to loy yesterday, i really wanna go bowling!!! ArGh!!!!!!!

In the canteen,
WW: *says a joke*
Everyone: *LOL*
Gerard: *says something lame*
Everyone: *world silence*
WW: *explains a term*
Gerard: *does world silence sign*
Everyone: *ignores G and nods in agreement to WW, giving several comments*
Gerard: *gives the WA LAU EH look*
Everyone: *stares at him and burst out laughing*

nobody but you

Those who face that which is actually before them, unburdened by the past, undistracted by the future, these are they who live, who make the best use of their lives; these are those who have found the secret of contentment.
Alban Goodier

2007-07-11T18:48:00.000+08:00

Today was one 'short' day. Well, it was suppose to be until the talk came and wasted like more than 2 hours of my time. Ended up doing my work in the LT so am quite satisfied that i have nothing to do tonight. Dad's going on a cruise trip. Haha. AGAIN. He's always away on such trips, if not it's fishing. HaiYo. >.<.

Maybe it's not the way..

Who would have guessed it possible that waiting is sustainable. A place with its own harvest.
Kay Ryan

2007-07-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

Got back all my results today. I must say it's rather disappointing and i think my classmates share my sentiments too. SiGh. I don't know what went wrong really, especially for econs. It's like everyone wrote so much, so many ticks, but like the teacher suanning us like that, the marks just never give. Nvm, sort econs out soon.

life is full of ups and downs
sometimes up outnumber the downs
but definately not today
seeing sadness streak across your face
i can't help but feel sad too
come on, you can do it
don't be discourage, don't be dishearten
continue to believe in yourself
for i have always believed in you

We cannot fail to win unless we fail to try.
Tom Clancy (1947 - )

2007-07-09T16:13:00.000+08:00

The start of school again. This week is going to be a long week. Already all the scheme of work is coming in and omg the workload is going to be crazy soon i sense. Anyway, i got back no paper today, so quite grateful that i would not have to suffer the aftermaths of receiving a failure script, which i'm pretty sure i'll experience soon anyway. SIAN.

Been in a pretty good mood after sunday, partially due to the fact about sermon about prayers. I feel much better after class that day. :)

I walk along
These empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave
The grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my corner stone
Some how you found a way to see the best I have in me.
As far as time goes on I swear to you that you will be
Never gone...

today's quote is way funny...
The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised.
George F. Will (1941 - )

2007-07-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just came home from Uncle Zac's place. Had gathering of two cell groups, Branches and Genesis. Went there mainly for the food, all the usual people i hang out with not there, lucky got my sis to talk to or else i'll be bored to death. Haha.

The food was great: chicken wings, glutinous rice, cold salad prawns, fruits, fried bee hoon, free flow coke, many many more snacks. Definately ate my fill :)

Oh man, this is the last week to really enjoy myself, after this is dead hard work. SIGh! Worship at teh multi-purpose was great. Yupp, church tmr. Watching Live Earth on TV now, damn cool i so love live performances.

In the secret, in the quiet place
In the stillness, you are there
In the secret, in the quiet hour i wait only for you

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.
Chuck Palahniuk (1962 - ), Fight Club

2007-07-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

Weekend is finally here!!!! So happy!!! Played dota again online with kah wee and kumhung today. Really took my mind of and lingering things. Well, after sorting out my thoughts, i felt much better :) but then agin, omg.. no fiesta then dota, no dota then cs.. LoL.. no life seh..

Just posted a random post on my second journal: Click Here!

After this weekend is gone, gotta study damn hard already, every sec,min,hour,day is crucial. Haiz, mj teachers really pushing like crazy.

it's like the wind sweeping the paths apart
some things were not what they were use to be

The happiest is the person who suffers the least pain; the most miserable who enjoys the least pleasure.
Jean Jacques Rousseau (1712 - 1778), Emile, 1762

2007-07-05T16:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was really a great day, a nice day after exams just going out to play with my classmates. Choinged Dota like i never did before. I really thank the guys for the opportunity to take my mind of several things.

Today go school and got back GP and Chem, thank God i passed. But i'm not very sure about the other subjects. Hope for the best yeah.

Don't know why, suddenly when i got home today i feel so moodless. I suddenly felt weird, like why am i even caring about certain things that doesn't concern me. Maybe somethings in life were made to be this way, u cannot force it, and u cannot foresee it. Oh wells, who cares..

Today's quote come from something i read the other day, it spoke so nicely to me and cheered me up...

"We've been insanely taught that we can create our own worth. We spend out lives forever building our self-esteem; having it destroyed and building it back up again. The tradegy is that anything can be constructed can be deconstructed. Self-esteem is something we manufacture in order to create a sense of control or power. It offers a false sense of worth based on our achievement only. 'I did, therefore I am.' This is the opposite of what God made us to be, 'I am, therefore i do.' "
Chip Dott The Voice of the Heart

2007-07-03T08:59:00.000+08:00

Watched transformers with the 4H people yesterday, yup, true to the comments that everyone made, it was a great show. GREAT show. Haha. I'm just kind of surprise the newspaper gave it 2, the most 3 stars out of 5. Maybe they no childhood? LoL.

Yesterday i took a lone bus ride home. Being alone was kind of great, i didn't know why i wanted to be alone, just that i needed to be. Guess it gave me time to think over some issues. :) But most important thing i realised was that God has a perfect plan for each one of us, yeah He made if more evident to me yesterday. And He told me he would be the one there when no one else is.

Oh and do visit: MJ mugger blog!

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young

Fight for your opinions, but do not believe that they contain the whole truth, or the only truth.
Charles A. Dana (1819 - 1897)

2007-07-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

Halfway through a break of 4 days, and i'm still in study mood. Kind of surprising, considering that i've been gaming a lot ever since the weekend is here. Going to watch transformers with the other 4H guys tmr, can't wait :)

Was flipping thrught the lifestyle section of today's Sunday Times when i read the horoscope of Scorpio. It reads : You gave it your all but it won't work out the way you want it to. Take heart, though - something wonderful is about to happen. Once it does, you'll look back and be happy this didn't end up as a total waste of your time. I hope it refers to exams, or maybe something more, but i'm not about to start thinking about it.

Then as i was doing my quiet time just now, i read a question in the devotional material that went, "Do you have at least one faithful friend to journey with you through life? Ask God to provide - or be that friend to someone in need!". I begin thinking about the friends i have around me, i'm so thankful God place each and everyone of them in my life. Then i thought about my best friend Daniel. I came to realise just how long i never really talked to him, never really made an effort to do so. It seems as though both of us are so busy in our own lives that wells, we drifted apart. Sighs, i must really make an effort somehow. He's the one friend i had all my life, others well, the came and went. Just hope that those i have now would never go away :)

Are you a friend
That never goes away
Are you a friend
Forever devoted to stay
Are you a friend
That shares my happiness
Are you a friend
That help carry my sorrows
Are you a friend
Who is ever so forgiving
Who let's disappointment by bygones
But never fails to correct when i'm wrong
Are you a friend
Who loves me for who i am
And not what i am?
What kind of a friend, are you?

Real joy comes not from ease or riches or from the praise of men, but from doing something worthwhile.
Sir Wilfred Grenfell (1865 - 1940)

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